pink? blue? or green?

with each pregnancy i knew right from the beginning whether i wanted to find out what we were having.

my first pregnancy i was so excited and wanted to get everything perfect and just had to know. for the record i thought i was having a girl, and clearly carter is a boy.

then after 16 months of trying, we finally got pregnant w/ mason. i felt like i had waited long enough and just had to know what i was having. my pregnancy was so different than the first so i figured, this one must be a girl. even the u/s tech guessed girl at my 12 week scan. we were so excited to have a little avery kate, and then at 18 weeks we were told that we were having another boy! i was thrilled, i kinda wanted another boy. i figured i always wanted a sister, carter would love having a brother.

baby #3 (aka hadley) - craig and i always said that waiting until the birth would be fun, and that this might be our last pregnancy, that it could be an exciting way to make this pregnancy special. i was also so sick of strangers asking me if i wanted a girl and how great a girl would be. in my heart i thought that this baby was another boy, and i didn't want anyone to make a stupid comment that they felt sorry for me that i didn't have a girl. i just wanted to enjoy the pregnancy. i have always loved the idea of 3 or 4 of a kind. 3 boys sounded fun, and i would've loved to remain the only girl in the house. boy, did we receive the shock of our life, when after i delivered the baby, they placed it on my tummy and my doctor told craig to open the legs and make the call.... and he said (with tears streaming down his face) "it's a girl!"

that moment was amazing!!! was it the excitement of the day? or was it because i was so sure it was a boy and i was wrong? i never knew how much i wanted a daughter until she was there, and i fell in love instantly. it was one of the best moments in my life.

so here i am... pregnant again, and i really don't know what to do. i just assumed that last time the experience was so great, i would want to do it again. but now i questioning that. it would be great for the kids to find out, especially the boys. our big u/s is scheduled on our 10th anniversary, and that would be a very special gift. since i now have both boys and a girl, there isn't as much hype over will this one be the girl... i have no "gut" instinct about this baby's gender, which is good, since i am always wrong.

oh, and names... they are so much harder this time. i told craig tonight that i have been looking at the same baby names for 8 years... it might be nice to just think of one gender.

i think it might be a game time decision... craig said it is up to me, he doesn't care either way. these are the thoughts running through my head while watching game 7 of the celtics vs. lakers. (go celtics!)

all thoughts, opinions, suggestions welcomed! and of course baby names... help!!!!