blah!

blah! that is how i felt all week for no particular reason.

mother's day was fine... nothing special or exciting. craig is great at getting me exactly what i want, but struggles with being romantic and spontaneous. all i said i wanted was to get my car cleaned out and detailed. last saturday it rained all day, so tomorrow it will go in. i don't know what more i wanted, but i think i was hoping for something.... anything. oh, well. after 16 years i should know better.

on monday i was suppose to meet my cousin for dinner. i was looking forward to seeing her and telling her my news. i even booked a sitter so i could leave early, do a little shopping before we met and didn't have to wait for craig to get home. well, i got an email sunday night that she had to cancel. usually not a big deal, but since i was in a mood, i was disappointed. craig offered to meet me for dinner if i wanted to keep the sitter... so that was nice.

on tuesday i ordered a home fetal doppler. i love being pregnant, and really want to enjoy my last pregnancy. since i was having a little pity party, i thought some retail therapy would help.

life is busy with the 3 kids, and most of the time when craig comes to my appointments, he just stays in the waiting room with whoever i have with me, and doesn't get to come in and listen to the heart beat. now we can listen whenever we want... i know it may seem silly to some, but for me, it just feels right. i am confident in this pregnancy, so i did not order it out of fear. i am pretty sure we will not be finding out the sex of this baby ahead of time, so it will allow for some nice bonding time.

by wed. i was still feeling blah... so i asked my friend jen if she wanted to join me for a pedicure, and lunch. it was a cool and yucky day, after my pedicure and a hot bowl of cheddar broccoli soup from panera, i was feeling better.

thursday was going well, but then around 3:00, i got a massive headache, and then my eyes started to hurt. after dinner i just rested while craig got the kids ready for bed. all i wanted to do was crawl in be and watch grey's and private practice. my 2 favorite hours of tv watching all the week.

today i still didn't feel great... i canceled mason speech (which is now twice a week) and stayed in my pj's all morning. i made some brownies, and just hung out with the kids. it was nice. i even got a little nap in before i had to get carter off the bus!! we met craig at chili's for dinner, and then let the kids run off their energy outside.

i am looking forward to the weekend, and i am really ready to put the blah feeling behind me. i'm thinking some nice flowers might help (yes craig, i'm talking to you).