so, i have an empty feeling inside. now that the holiday rush is over, and our vacation week is done, i am sitting here feeling down. i was suppose to start sharing my news this week...
yesterday i finally left the house and went to buy a pair a jeans at the gap, and all i could think about is that they should have been maternity jeans. i then took a trip to target to pick up a prescription, and my peppermint mocha latte at starbucks. that was the most i did all week. i have had no desire to get up, dressed, and go out.
today i was talking to a mom while mason was at speech. i talk to her every week, and she is very nice. she was asking me lots of questions about our christmas and vacation. she was then asking our plans for the summer, and if we had any vacations planned. i finally told her about the m/c. i hate this feeling like i am keeping a secret. not that it is appropriate to share my news with the world, but i don't want to hide it either.
physically i am feeling so much better. emotionally, i have been doing good for the most part. i guess keeping busy with the kids is a good distraction. i have my follow-up appointment with my doctor on friday, and i am looking forward to it, and then moving along. hopefully she will tell us that it is ok to start ttc again, and now that i got pregnant on my own i have hopes that it will happen again.
ok, well i should start making dinner soon and get off the couch... i guess this is what a pity party feels like.
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You're entitled to a pity party. A m/c is very hard, physically and emotionally. Take as much time and have as many parties as you need. ((hugs))
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