ok, the big question in our house... or at least in my head!

will the jacobs five, become the jacobs six??? and the answer... who knows! ha ha!

if you asked me anytime from after carter was born, until june the answer would have been yes, without a doubt. but then once school was out, and i had 3 kids home full time, i was exhausted!!! i was carter's personal driver, and the whole month of july carter did 1/2 day camps, and me, mason and hadley were always on the go. by the end of august i was really questioning what life would be like with 4 kids. then you add in sports, play dates, school projects, field trips, speech, etc. and it can really be a lot.

i really LOVE my life!!! i wouldn't change it for anything in the world. i thank god that i have craig, he is not only a great husband, but an amazing father. he is also my best friend and we really parent our kids well together. and at the end of the day, he cares how my day went.

there has been so many conversations in our house about our families future. i have asked friends for advice, and have read articles in magazines about the "perfect" family size. i am very content right now... but will i regret not having another baby? oh, and babies... i love them!!!! i am such a baby person. i love newborns!!! i work well on little sleep, and even though i haven't had the easiest pregnancies, i actually enjoyed being pregnant.

so for now, i still don't know what the future holds... i do know that i would love another baby and maybe i shouldn't think about it so much. i can't imagine doing any sort of fertility treatments/medication again, nor do i want to take out my fertility monitor and have "everything" be so timed and planned. maybe i won't really have too much of a say in this anyways. although i would like to think i have role in planning my future, i guess i can only say if or when i am ready for another baby, and then it is up to god, fate, science... whatever you call it, i can only do my part.

what i know for sure, is that i love my kids so much!!! i am so thankful for them... and what is a post w/out a picture???? (btw, in writing this post, i think i changed my mind about 5 times... LOL)